Frustration

Okay, i have decided that i am definitely in a relationship rut. I reckon at least 99% of people must surely be experiencing this too!! I go from 'i'm sure it will work out if i just persevere' to ' fuck this, i want out NOW!!'. I blame myself then i blame him. I know im not being unreasonable. Well at least i think im not. Since i have decided to 'give it another go' after breaking it off. I have tried to exercise the little patience i have. I have tried to please him, tried to look at him in the same light i did when we met. Tried to think about the good things. Yet still i cant help but get annoyed by what he doesnt do as opposed to what he does. i.e. decorating and not clearing up. Not washing a plate after i have jst finished the dishes, leaving the toilet shitty! I have tried to smile more and to stop myself when i feel im about to blow. But yet i still feel as though he is all talk and no action. And i say that at a push as communication always seems to break down. I think i want a miracle but i know deep down that is highly unlikely.